Bye bye bappa

So he is finally leaving today...

And I stand next to my window watching a lot of versions of him leaving saying its final good bye for now. Its an amazing feeling to watch how people take him to the beach by Dancing, singing, in short going totally crazy.

They say he comes to spread happiness and leaves by taking all your fears and worries with him. To be honest that does make me feel a little happy to see someone taking the load of me but then with me there must be thousands of others who he takes the load off right ? and then are ten days enough for that?

While all this is going on in mind I also start thinking how dirty my city and my beaches are going to be tomorrow, how many people might not have a goodnight sleep cause of all the noise outside, so many must be stuck in traffic jams cause they didn't have an option to miss work or avoid chores today. So then how is this suppose to make me say bye to him with all my love?

I am not saying saying he doesn't deserve a full whole hearted celebration to see him off, but sometimes I wonder does he see this and feel happy or does he want them to stop? Does he think its a little less or over the top? I mean does Bappa also think that "I am always in your heart I am not going anywhere" then sitting somewhere upstairs just screams "STOP THIS !!!". Think about it when ever you are happy or sad he is always there, you know like that friend that always stands by you no matter what and sometimes stands for you as well (which is in todays date trust me is a big deal).

This year his birthday has bought alot in my life also left me with a alot to think about and maybe I am not saying it right but I guess its one of those things that you just need to feel than think about.

So Bappa come back soon I am already missing you and as always thank you for standing by me and giving me everything I have and for everything I don't [cause you and I both know we will get there:)] and as you leave I hope a lot of people will send there worries or thanks with you to start a new chapter in their lives.